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Escaping

September 10, 2008

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I escaped every summer when I was young, I stayed w/ my grand-mom & grand-daddy and I had my mom’s cousin I stayed w/ too. Those few weeks in the summer gave me a chance to not think about what he did to me and just be a kid. Looking back I am glad I […]

To Forgive Sounds Good But….

August 29, 2008

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To forgive sounds good but I am not sure I could…these words are playing in my ears right now. The Dixie Chicks song, Not Ready To Make Nice is a song that speaks volumes about my situation. I was sexually abused from 6 y/o to 9/10 y/o. He started by exposing himself, the first time […]

Stolen Potential

August 29, 2008

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He stole every ounce of potential from me. He stole my self worth. He stole my sense of security. In essence he killed me. He made me feel as though I am not worthy of anything. He caused such pain and hardship in mine and mom’s relationship, all so that he could molest me. I […]

Scars

May 16, 2007

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We all have emotional scars that serve as a reminder of past hurts. These scars are suppose to remind us feelings and experiences that we don’t want to encounter again. Mine only serve to remind me of a childhood broken and scary. I have only just started to confront the scars of my past. I […]

Fitting In

May 6, 2007

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As I write this I am on the verge of tears.  All my life I have wanted to fit in whether that be in Church or at school.  As a young girl church should’ve been a refuge yet it was a place of contention for me.  I went because my family went yet I felt […]

Betrayal

May 5, 2007

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It isn’t a matter of forgiving the abuse that was done it is in coming to terms with what the abuse has done to me.   Three years ago when I made it known to the rest of my family (I told my mom at 17/18, I’ll go into her refusal to confront the issue later) […]

Such a pretty girl…

March 8, 2007

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….or so I thought.  I grew up in a “whole” family with a mom and a step-dad.  From the outside looking in it was a “normal” family.  From the inside out it was a whole other ball game.  I was molested from age 6-9 yrs of age.  Verbally abused all my life until I left home and […]